Tuesday, May 17, 2011

A sense of depression...

So I have a year and three months sober, when I first got sober I was quite angry at almost everything, the person driving in front of me, the lady on line taking too long, my parents for not calling me on time. Everything. Well that subsided, since then I have gotten over the anger (not 100% trust me), I can tell it's stablized. To tell you a litle about myself I am ambitious, I work hard every single day. Lately I have not been able to shake this funk that I am not where I am suppose to be, I am about to turn 32 years old and have accomplished very little. I have gotten a good job but feel like I am working on selling someone else's product, I have experienced working on my own product and I really like it, I am an Entrepreneur at heart but this entails working almost 12 hour days. It gets in the way of meetings which takes some time to drive to. I think about all of the time I spent drinking and wasted in a bottle and I get mad that I am this old and do not have a successful company of my own, I see and hear of friends that are doing quite well and I get envious and throw myself into a hole of depression. This in turn makes me want to isolate and I have to crawl my way out of the funk. So here I am, I'm waking up each day no longer hung over but feeling like I am not where I should be. Anyway, it's nice to get it out, any comments are welcome.

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