This is the first day of the end

I have so much running through my brain that I am feeling the overflow big time! These past few days have been just a jumble of brain farts that I forgot what day it was this morning. LOL!! I don’t know what to say or what to do….I don’t know what the real problem could be, for the most part, my life is sailing along smoothly at this moment. I have a mountain of chaos going on around me and I have one issue that has been plaguing me for awhile now but I don’t feel as though it is hindering me. I am just going to start today by writing what I can when the “feelings” start to arise…so this will be a multiple part blog entry I have a lot of feelings going on but too much stuff going on to stop and feel them. Now I know that I should not be burying them but I have been busy for the most part enjoying my time with my son before I find a “real job” and he starts preschool. So I have been pushing blogging, networking and life coaching to the back burner…I can not and will not do that anymore…I was having thoughts that what I was doing was keeping me in a cynical frame of mind or maybe holding me in my addiction…I was feeling as though I had nothing worthwhile to say….I was feeling negative…I was not feeling inspired Small wonders have been happening to me…basically certain events have thrown me a ladder and I am crawling out of this hole I have been hiding in…look out world, I have been sleeping and I have a lot of stuff to get off my chest before it consumes me and I fall down again. TO BE CONTINUED……………………………. Check back later for another entry after I go and play mom for a bit…what is it that those showbiz folk say, “The show or life must go on!” Staying positive…Staying strong….Staying in touch with my feelings….that is all I can do at this point